Woe

I'm back to feeling like I can't get too excited about college again. I kept getting amped about Brooklyn College and I made plans concerning if I had to go there (out of necessity) but there is a pretty reasonable chance that I will not so I guess I'm trying to brace myself for that. I just reaaaally don't want to be bummed or less excited about school as I could be if I don't get in. My SUNY apps aren't squared yet and that is troubling me too.. (since I probably won't get into Brooklyn College..that is my best bet).

*SIGH. Things will work out.. >.>

I'm considering saving even more of my money now so I can buy things during college.. I mean.. considering I probably don't NEED anything at the moment..It might be worth just saving it to have it later.

Solitude!

I'm alone QUITE a lot I realize... A LOT. I don't know how I tolerate it. If someone else was me they would probably be super depressed because of that by itself. I shoulldddd.. go out more. I just feel like I can't really that freely yet. Not that there's anything to do around here.

Work is going ok *knock on wood*. I'm still a little worried about my college applications because those aren't done yet (the essay part). I'm also having trouble 'budgeting' sort of because I want to allot so much money to school and to life savings that I don't have any money left over for myself.. but there are some things I would like to get.. while I do have some income of my own.. because I might not when school rolls around.

Fall Vogue 2011

A mysterious fall vogue appeared in the mail today addressed to my mother! We never get vogue in the mail so she must have signed up for it from the ELLE mag I gave her. It's a tad less exciting because I've already flipped through it in the bookstore and seen some of the ads in the ELLE but I guess I can look at it more closely now.. maybe we'll get more!! That would be great.

It's weird that it suddenly appeared to me on the one day I decide to watch 'Project Runway'.. Maybe the universe is trying to tell me something

End Of Trueblood Season 4 (spoilers)

Saw the last episode of season 4 of True Blood. I feel like this season was very short and there was more suspense in the past ones but, of course, it was not without it's great, interesting moments. I'm mad they killed Jesus.. I thought he would be sticking around for awhile and I will not be happy if Tara dies. Idk why people hate Tara.. I know she makes mistakes and is a bit wound up but she's a great person/character and has done nothing unreasonable.. and Sookie has done plenty of stupid shit. I don't usually say this but I think some people just don't like her because she's black.

Towards the end I was wondering what else could they surprise us with.. like in terms of setting up for next season and the future problems.. Having Reverend Newlin show up as a vampire was absolutely superb! I mean it wasn't a total head spinner but I was just like 'hahahaahaha cool!'... it really was.

And also.. I thought it was weird that they killed Nan.. not that she was a favorite or anything but Idk.. I feel like she would be involved more. I wonder if they are going to introduce a lot of new characters since they seem to be killing off quite a few.

Otocinclus and Feeding Cory Cats

My tank looks super algae free now! There's just some dead algae that flaked off and landed on the bottom and on the plant but other than that.. the cave is algae free and the gravel doesn't have a spot of bright green. Now I just wonder what my otocinclus is going to eat or if he's going to live. I almost hope more algae grows now that I know it won't be a big problem.

My cory cats were looking kind of gaunt even though I've been trying to feed them. My betta is pretty tolerant of the other fish but he will get aggressive over food or at least scare them away. He eats their pellets and their wafers.. he gets so fat sometimes it's a wonder he hasn't overeaten and died. So my new 'solution'.. well, it's an idea, is to crush up the pellets and have them get sprinkled over the bottom.. this way they are not noticeable but the cory cats will suck them up and as they scrounge around. I'm not sure if this is enough or if the filter gets most of it or if I'm just making my tank gravel dirty but >.> Don't know what else to do!

Oh Nepenthe pt.2

My new tumblr is coming along well enough. Finding interesting stuff has gotten a lot easier and I actually dared to write about something (albeit clumsily like I always do)! Here it is again, ohnepenthe.tumblr.com

"If you strive to be RICH: Then you should pay yourself 15 - 20 %"

So, I've been thinking about savings accounts again.! And after I buy my 32gb Zune I will start putting the bulk of my earnings away. I'm seriously considering using ING Direct savings, American Express, or Discover.

My problem is, although I want Discover and their 1.10% APY, they have a $500.00 minimum to start.. which I don't think I have.. and even if I do, they have $50 minimum deposit which I don't know if I could keep up with. Ideally I'd like to save over 10 years.. $50 dollars weekly. But since I'll be going to school I don't know if I'll have a job or a way to get that money. Same problem if I wanted to put $100 a month into savings although it's not impossible to do if one was working.

I really want to be consistent with savings and not miss 4 years of savings while I'm in school.

ING Direct and American Express have a %1.00 APY which isn't horrible at all, plus no minimum and I think no fees. One of those or something like 'Ally' bank would probably be more ideal.

Biore Triple Action Astringent Arrived!

YAY! Today I got my 'Biore Triple Action Astringent', that I ordered off Amazon, in the mail today. I haven't used it yet but I'm very excited to! It has 2% salicylic acid as it's active ingredient which is no big deal. It is also states that it is 'Clinically proven to INSTANTLY work 66% BETTER THAN 'Proactiv'" Which I didn't know about, so that's cool. It's 8.5oz (250mL) and I got it for like 9 bucks including shipping.

Hopefully it works extra well with my Biore Pore Unclogging Scrub (which I am almost out of)!

Penniless Audiophile

After doing some looking around and reading review after review I decided to order new headphones! The Brainwavs M1 seem to be one of the best in my price range ($30 - 40). I was originally only hoping to spend $30 at the most but then I had remembered that my last headphones were about $40 so I thought it was best to spend around that again. I know money isn't everything though and I'm not implying that it's impossible for there to be a good IEM for around $30 but based on reviews and some other stuff I thought it'd be best to spend around as much as last time.

Oh, and another great thing is I qualified for super save shipping or whatever on amazon! I love free shipping so much.. shipping & handling fees always break my balls. In total I think it cost me like $39.99

Very excited waiting to get them!

Omnom.

I hate staying up long/late enough to get hungry again. Midnight snack indeed.

3:45 - 8:30

UUUUGHHH I HAVE WORK TODAY! WTHHH!!!!!!!!! T___T *Sigh...........

Savings

I got this offline and will hold it near and dear to my heart. It concerns how much of your paycheck should go towards savings (what percentage).

* If you strive to be DEAD BROKE: Then you should spend more than you earn

* If you strive to be POOR: Then you should spend everything you make, and always talk of saving “some day”

* If you strive to be MIDDLE CLASS: Then you should pay yourself 5 - 10% gross income

* If you strive to be UPPER MIDDLE CLASS: Then you should pay yourself 10 -15%

* If you strive to be RICH: Then you should pay yourself 15 - 20 %

* If you strive to be RICH ENOUGH TO RETIRE EARLY: Then you should pay yourself greater than 20%

Otocinclus to the Rescue!

The surviving oto seems to have eaten almost all the algae! My tank is pretty clean now except for a single plastic plant, some gravel, and a bit of the tank deco. It seems to be dying too, the algae, it's changed from the bright green to a dark, muddy, hooker green, while sort of.. flaking off. I removed some because I read somewhere that dead algae turns into/gives off ammonia but I want to leave it too, to feed the oto. I think they do eat dead algae as well.. well, I hope so because that plant is still covered and I don't want ammonia in the tank!

Plus I don't want to have to take out everything to clean the ornaments / gravel when everything appears to be stabilizing finally. Don't know if the water siphon will clean the gravel that well either...

Also, my betta fish seems to be doing much better. His color is brighter and more even, and there is just a bit of new fin growth.

Jonesing For College

*SIGH MY FRIEND IS AWAY, IN SCHOOL!. and I is here. I don't want to be working.. I want to go to college already! I want to learn new stuff, take notes, listen to lectures, and read shit! and yeah.. all that jazz. live away. have things set in motion!

Painless

Hmm.. I'm not interested in jinxing myself or speaking too soon but work has gotten a lot better. It's probably because I have learned more and don't have to ask for help quite AS much. I was kinda slow today though so I better remind myself not to be a slacker! Working 5 days this week.. hmm hope the monies is sizable..

FIRST SKIN FOOD!

So I finally decided to get a hold of the "Skin Food Rice Mask Wash Off". I'd been oggling it for a time but I was hesitant to spend money on anything in general (still kinda am). It's smaller than I would like! (which also made me hesitant to buy it) but it has nothing but great reviews and I think it could really help my skin! I got it for just about $11 maybe it was $10.75 total on Ebay. It normally goes for around $20 so paying only half that is great...especially since it's so small. I better make it last >.>

It smells like lotion!

More Brooklyn College Babble

OMG. So I checked the website and I do not need a essay/supplement.. thank god (although this might be a bad thing too). Furthermore my SAT scores seem like they make the cut just about, with and without my writing score being included.. My math is JUST high enough that if I got in I wouldn't have to take the C.U.N.Y. Skills Assessment Test! Thank the stars, I do not want to take more tests. Really hope I get in x.x

Early November

OMG! According to the CUNY site I should know if I got into any of the CUNY Schools (BROOOOOKLYYNNN COLLEGGEEE!!!!) in early November.. *sigh Omg. OMGGGGG.. that's sooner than expected. I'm happy about that but I just keep like.. flipping back and forth.. between thinking I have a chance to thinking I have absolutely none. My grades aren't that great.. and there's no essay as far as I know.. but my resume seems like it might be kinda good/decent. *SIGH

Brooklyn College! City Housing? It's Coming Soon..

So I was trying to seriously think about making living arrangements for if I got into Brooklyn or City College. I probably should because it really is coming, and moving/finding housing is no simple business. Min said I could live with her if I ended up going to BC since she is seriously considering getting an apartment near there...Although she won't have a place until April I think and I would start school in January.

In case my dad doesn't pull through with off campus housing I checked out the new BC dorm. It gets points for being new but it's scarily plain and boring and sparse... literally no tiny bit of decoration anywhere in any part of the building. The rooms also seem pretty small and annoyingly laid out (even for a dorm). I could deal with it if I had to but I can see myself suffering in that space (the dorm in general).

I checked out EHS () and found an alternative in the St. George Weller dorm. From the video/pictures it looks amazingly decorative, upbeat and warm, with decent room sizes/layouts and amenities. EHS, as you can imagine is pretty expensive still but for the SPRING 2012 semester it seems it's around the same rate (for triple room) as the boring, new Brooklyn College dorm. It's a little farther though from the school than I would like but such a nice environment seems worth it.


ROOM RATES ST. GEORGE WELLER:

I was having doubts for awhile but I definitely think that Brooklyn College is my first choice school. I really hope I get in and that I'm not being too optimistic by thinking I can/might. It's still good I've reinforce this thought though because if I do get accepted I can really get on the ball about applying/finding housing. It seems too good to be true but I seriously want to get a space in this dorm!!!!

St. George Weller Student Housing (Video + Photos + Info) (EHS site)

Second Post Of September

I noticed that I'm writing more lengthy posts now. That's interesting. I hope I don't jinx it! I also found a check someone gave with more than decent amount of money on it. I'm glad I have more $$$ to fill up the bank with! I'd really like more mulaaa.. I wonder when I will get paid / how much I will get.

Anxiousness

I feel very anxious now. Almost like when I have too much caffeine! It might be in part because I don't know when I'm working this week, what my hours are. There's a place where we (the employees) can check it online, which I think is really cool, but there's nothing on there yet. I have a feeling they just might ask me to work tomorrow though.

I hung out with my dear friend Che today! We had an odd but overall good day. I decided that I might try transferring to S.U.N.Y. Binghamton (she did too) and I'm still looking at other schools. I had originally planned to just graduate from whatever C.U.N.Y. or S.U.N.Y. school I got into but now I'm considering making plans to transfer to something else.

But who knows what things will be like!! I'll really just have to go, and experience, and see. I still have no freaking clue what my major should be or is gonna end up being.

Really anxious/restless right now.. maybe the tea I had had more caffeine than one would think. Agghhh..