Hm.

Thinking about my future right now is like looking into a cheap kaleidoscope; interesting enough to keep you peering through but clearly fragmented..

Unwind

House all to myself + Bailey's in the nice glass + incense + Rites of Spring = yes

Eau Premiere

The November VOGUE issue came in today and I was excited to sniff the new perfume swatches. I actually really liked Chanel N5 Premiere even though I was hesitant to try it at first.Usually I can't get a good wiff of Chanel perfumes because the MACYs ladies are always on top of me; makes it hard for me to think..err smell and remember the scents.

So yeah, I actually think I really want to get Chanel N5 Premiere but go figure it's one of the more expensive. Also, wasn't sure if it was too mature for mee.. Maybe if I wore nicer clothes while wearing it?x3

Other than that, I was interested in Oscar de la Renta Espirit d'Oscar. The scent seemed like it would be more age appropriate for me but it's not wearing as well on my wrist as the Chanel.

PERFUMANIIAAA

Ladies that work at Perfumania > ladies that work at perfume dept. in MACYS. They are way more helpful.. know more.. don't talk as much and leave you alone.

Being.

I don't know how to  BE.. I have to find a happy medium.

Tr*sha

The new regime under the new store manager is really annoying. That woman is awkward and condescending and she reminds me of my dad's crazy ex-wife. If you didn't think things could get more irritating at work...they definitely can.
I dread doing closing with my manager and any of the new assistant managers now = ( Two out of the three times I was stuck with them they made me stay late. *Sigh we were just fine before!

"Only If You Run"

"I´ve had my frustrations about the pains of daily life
I´ve tasted degradation and found the lace and candle light
But we have the weights we have the measures of our days and nights
I´ve had my frustrations but now I´ve found my place

And you will make it
But only if you run"

Julian Plenti (solo name of singer from Interpol)

Emily Emily (Haines)

I googled pictures of the group 'Metric'. One of my go to things to listen thing when I chill out or if I decide not to put on anything too intense. I was surprised by the lead singer. From her voice I always pictured like, an ultra femme, lipstic lesbian, Avril Lavigne, type; Brightly painted nails and long blonde hair, skinny, with dark eye makeup and red lip stick, and lots of bracelets on. But she's actually pretty quirky looking (in a good way of course), an unexpectedly strong jaw, and much more mature aura. I like it a lot.

She reminds me of Uma Thurman (probably best known as the main character from 'Kill Bill').

They could probably pass for sisters, or cousins or something.

FRIENDS

I actually watched 'FRIENDS' in the early AMs last night (this morning?). I thought back to my boyfriend's sister who liked FRIENDS a lot and claimed to have watched all the episodes. It's not my new favorite or anything but I better understand the appeal now. The memories I had about it before were when I was a kid so I get why I didn't like it so much.

Changing Seasons

It's been very cool and sunny out. My cheeks had some light dryness (could just be my toner lol) and my lips are getting chapped as hell (someone is whippin up a batch of sugar scrub soon). So the cold seasons are definitely on the move. Not to mention it's pretty deep into October. I'm almost starting to feel a similar anxiety about the winter season as I did about autumn in the summer. Again, it might be the PMS. I hope nothing bad happens.

Nails Painted Nails

Just recently I've gotten into the idea of painting my nails. I haven't done that since middle school and although I like it on other people, the last time I tried it again, I was really irked with not being able to see my natural nails.

However my friend said that she likes her natural nails too but until they grow out and there's white tips, she paints them.

I do cut my nails to get them to grow back even so I suppose I could paint them in the meantime too. (Because I like the white part, but if they're not there then maybe 'what the hey?'.

I really like the Sally Hansen color 'Grey By Grey'. I think I might get that. I also liked 'Haute Chocolate', from the same line. Patterns and designs are neat.. the Sally Hansen Salon Effects ones are kinda ugly though.

Stuffy Day, Work Tomorrow

Today the house was kind of stuffy and tense. Generally it is a bit oppressive but I felt quite shepherded into my room and not able to get out. My step dad was in the living room most of the day.. I think he was mad also, about stuff, and annoyed at me. Maybe it's just my PMS making me a little irritated. Point is, not the loveliest day off. Also, my friend was suppose to come over but she didn't, again. I wanted her to do nail things with me = (

My 'HEM' brand Patchouli incense was nice today though. I definitely need more scents.

It's back to work tomorrow, closing. Hope I'm not stuck alone with the new store manager. I'm not that fond of her and last time she made me stay later than late. Also, I have to take the bus; good thing I found some quarters!

Caught 'Songcatcher'

Watched  the middle/end of the movie 'Songcatcher' on HBO. It was nice! I like the music a lot and that beardy mountain guy with the guitar is pretty cute. Good movie. Might have seen it before but I don't remember.

Someone To Talk To

A little lonely at the moment! Or, I want to talk to someone at least. My friends are busy and my boyfriend is who knows where doing whatever... Or maybe he is sleeping. He should call me damnit

Making Sugaring Paste Pt.3 (final?)

I ended up not using my sugaring paste and I don't know if I will. It hardened up way more than I thought it would and now I understand the purpose of a microwavable jar. Although this jar handled the heat of it while pouring it in. It's doubtful it wouldn't crack in the microwave.
However, at least I know how to make it now, and that it's not very difficult :3 Also, next time I'll just make enough for one use unless I find a better container to keep it in.

It's tasty though. wonder if I should attempt a lollipop or something.

About September

After my blog finished up the month of August I thought it was cool that I had pretty much the same amount of posts as July without even trying. Except for one (literally) August had 35 entries and July had 36. I decided that from now on I would have at least 36 entries every month. I started lagging behind in September but in one day I easily churned out maybe 6 posts so I thought I was on the right track.

SIGH

but as you can see.. I really completely failed.. September only making 22 posts. lol It just urks. I will try not to make the same mistake again. Even though I'm off to a slow start.

Apps Not In..

I texted Minnie last night about me worrying about college and life and she called me this morning to say that we'll talk about it tonight. That makes me feel a little relieved. I really wanna get stuff done but I seriously need help. I hope it's not too much for her.

It's quite.. idk.. unnerving(?) not knowing where I'm going to be in a few months. You could say that I'll be away no matter what.. at an upstate SUNY or in the CUNY but I still have the very unassured feeling that things will go wrong.

New PS3

*SIGH So I tried the new hard drive and although the hard drive itself worked perfectly fine it did not fix my disk reading problem! I ended up getting a new PS3 slim after tinkering with the optical drive on the old PS3 caused more trouble (I thought I was close to a breakthrough but then I pulled apart something I shouldn't have and might have lost some pieces). Decided to cut my losses after that. My step dad bought me the new PS3 which is a relief on my wallet but he still made me feel bad about it. It cost more than I anticipated.. and after we got it I realize I could have gotten it cheaper online (>.<). So I feel extra bad about that.. even though I did offer to give him the money back for it.

Oh well, just focus on the bright things... cut my losses.. got a new PS3 straight from the store.. so I didn't have to wait.. I can finally play gamess!!! OMg. And my dear dear boyfriend pre-ordered Skyrim for me too.

New PS3 Hard drive!

Finally ordered a new hard drive for my PS3! I already feel better about it but there is still a chance that it won't fix anything. Well, at least I'll have more space either way which is good.

Also, my step dad opted to pay for it so that's a big relief. I seriously don't make that much money and don't have a lot to spend for myself after putting allotted amounts away into savings. (I also have other things to buy.)

I want to take a bath (too bad the tub doesn't fill up) and eat some shrimp cocktail.

The one I picked out is the Seagate Momentus-- something something. 500GB and 5400 rpm.. should work fine!

I can't wait to start playing video games again! Skyrim is also coming out soooon!

Boot Hunt.

I have been on a crazy boot hunt since summer ended. For the life of me, I cannot find decent quality knee high or over knee boots, under $100 that fit my tastes. It's crazy considering I am seriously looking for something clean and basic (but chic), not elaborate or super stylized. The department stores I've been to so far, MACYS, Sears, JCPenneys, Kohl's.. Marshalls and a few smaller stores.. are all filled with ugly boots or one's that I'm just not looking to buy.

If I had the money I'd snatch up some of the Vince Camuto boots, particularly 'Flavian' or the one with the buttons down the side.

In the end I went back to an old favorite and think I will buy Doctor Martins 'Leanne' boots in black. A lace up wedge doc martin. It's basic but a little statement-y, durable, calf adjustable, and under $200. It also has a very tailored looking ankle which I like because my ankles are thick (gotta slim those puppies down). The heel is a little higher than I intended to purchase for an every day boot but it's a wedge, and Doc Martin brand so hopefully it will be comfortable and not hard to wear. Also, the leather seems softer than your typical Dr. martin boot so it shouldn't be uncomfortably stiff.

I was seriously considering getting a typical 20 eyelet doc martin boot but whenever I see it worn the calf looks a bit wide (unless it's a skinny person with a small shoe size wearing it). So I'm questioning how adjustable it is.. I mean I haven't seen enough pictures to be assured of it's adjustability. However it is a lace up boot so it should be very so!

I shouldn't be too afraid into being locked into one style.. I'll buy more boots as I go along.

Outgrowing

So, I found these awesome pair of chuck taylors on their website yesterday. I love them they are really great. Dark grey charcoal, black, wool and leather. The texture and the colors, and how they are arranged are definitely Megan approved! But I wore sneakers today to the mall and I found that, even though they don't look bad on mee.. that I don't really like them anymore. I mean..I felt a little immature wearing sneakers..
So I'm really debating getting these new ones because.. even though I know they won't look bad.. I don't want to look so casual anymore. I will probably regret not being able to get those sneakers though (for the hell of it) because, rarely do I find ones that I really like!

I don't look older but I feel like I have outgrown many things.. >.<

Making Sugaring Paste Pt.2

Ok so I finally finished. I got it to change all necessary colors and jar it up. I think the reason I was a little confused with the color is because I was using a black pot, so it looked darker, as opposed to the youtube user who was using a silver pot ( in which you could see more amber). I found an old jar.. it might not be the best jar to put hot things in but it's a decent size and I ran it under warm/hot water before putting the sugaring paste in.

It's a little lighter looking than in the picture. Also, I ate some, and it's not half bad tasting in small amounts. It sort of reminds me of honey cough drops.

I did attempt to use it in a rush/excitement and didn't wait for it to cool enough and almost burned myself + make slight sticky mess + not use cornstarch as advised by the youtube user.

Some problems.. I don't know how to effectively get it off the pot or the utensils I used.

Don't have time to try it out for real yet!

Making Sugaring Paste Pt.1

I am literally in the process of making 'sugaring' paste. If you don't already know, sugaring is a natural form of hair removal, similar to waxing. This is my first time making the paste and I am using a recipe from a youtube user (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7v-p8pW07iE). It basically consists of sugar, lemon juice, and water, heated over the stove into a paste/goo, with constant stirring. I'm a little concerned about the heat of the stovee.. and am not exactly sure what heat I should be using at what times and etc. to get the proper effect. I kinda just know what it's 'supposed' to look like. Maybe I should have done more research x3.

Well I kinda know that when people make caramel it involves heating sugar and has to be really hot.. the goo for sugaring (in the video) looks kind of like that, the color, so maybe I should put it up high. I'm also wondering if I should cover it or not.

Oh also.. we actually ended up not having lemon juice! So I literally had to fist squeeze some lemons into a cup >.> Kind of tedious but maybe it'll be better with fresh lemon juice.

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Ok so I did cover it for a bit and that might have been a mistake cuz it got all bubbly and was hard to bring down.. It doesnt look amber gooey yet.

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kept it on low heat and finally got that ambery color! but covered it a bit again so it got a little foamy.

CIDERR

I DISCOVERED APPLE CIDER! I had no idea how much I wanted some until I saw it. Yay!

Restock Biore!

Ok, so I'd been putting off going to CVS for some reason because I thought I'd wait to go with a friend. However I'd been running out of the Biore Pore Unclogging Scrub sample (that lasted quite a long, long while!) and was getting uncomfortable with not being able to wash my face properly. I finally went today! And got my first full sized bottle(?) of it. Looking forward to washing my face tonight x3.

'Kiss Of Moisture' Weee

So I was looking for a good lip balm to use since Winter is around the corner and I refuse to constantly have chapped lips. Burt's Bees is decent but it doesn't seem to have as much staying power. Taking a suggestion from 'Real Simple', the website, I picked up "Nivea 'A Kiss Of Moisture' Essential Lip Care" at my local drug store. It's probably a brand a lot of people have used before but I just sort of rediscovered their stuff. I think I will also get one of their other balms for the heck of it..

I only just put it on once because I want to save it for when Winter really rolls around but it's nice.. The tube is thick and the product is clear/white and goes somewhat glossy (good to match up lip stains) and has a sweet smell that doesn't resemble anything in particular but isn't bad at all.

Acqua Di Gio

So I found a perfume that I am pretty crazy about. It's called "Acqua di Gio" by Giorgio Armani and it's available at Macy's (although I think I've found it cheaper online). I also like that there is a companion cologne for men. It's a tad pricey but most decent perfumes are but it's less than $100. Thank VOGUE for this lovely discovery.

Winx Club Redub X_X

So they redubbed the english Winx Club which I don't understand at all. The characters all sound the same now and have a lot less personality.. I mean not that it was a super deep show to begin with but... now they seriously all sound like 12 year old girls talking into a microphone.