I need to make healthier friends! Not that I don't appreciate and love the ones I have but they all have such big issues; and I have my own problems; and I feel like I could drown in theirs if I happen to start thinking about all of them at once (which I do sometimes).
One friend I have is definitely more stable/progressive but she's going away to college soon and is more centered on her own life right now. I wish I could talk to her more though, and tell her this stuff, and be casual, but she has a lot going on (since she's going away).
As for everyone else.. the lot of them have big mental/emotional issues or life problems and the one, out of that group, that isn't bordering on unstable, I can't talk to/vent about the others because he has a complete lack of understanding/sympathy for those types of things. On top of that, he thinks whatever is bothering me is completely unfounded or irrelevant too; which is just frustrating as hell (not to mention, completely unhelpful).
Idk... just thinking about all this is stressing me out a little. My one relatively rational friend is going away and like..who's gonna be my arm to lean on?.. or shelter in the storm for this new upcoming time in my life. Like I said, I love and appreciate my friends but maybe being surrounded by so much crazy really is negatively impacting me (or will) even though I think I've been handling things pretty well and not letting it get me too down.
Ugh I just want to skip this part and go to college already!! >.<
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