Woe

I'm back to feeling like I can't get too excited about college again. I kept getting amped about Brooklyn College and I made plans concerning if I had to go there (out of necessity) but there is a pretty reasonable chance that I will not so I guess I'm trying to brace myself for that. I just reaaaally don't want to be bummed or less excited about school as I could be if I don't get in. My SUNY apps aren't squared yet and that is troubling me too.. (since I probably won't get into Brooklyn College..that is my best bet).

*SIGH. Things will work out.. >.>

I'm considering saving even more of my money now so I can buy things during college.. I mean.. considering I probably don't NEED anything at the moment..It might be worth just saving it to have it later.

Solitude!

I'm alone QUITE a lot I realize... A LOT. I don't know how I tolerate it. If someone else was me they would probably be super depressed because of that by itself. I shoulldddd.. go out more. I just feel like I can't really that freely yet. Not that there's anything to do around here.

Work is going ok *knock on wood*. I'm still a little worried about my college applications because those aren't done yet (the essay part). I'm also having trouble 'budgeting' sort of because I want to allot so much money to school and to life savings that I don't have any money left over for myself.. but there are some things I would like to get.. while I do have some income of my own.. because I might not when school rolls around.

Fall Vogue 2011

A mysterious fall vogue appeared in the mail today addressed to my mother! We never get vogue in the mail so she must have signed up for it from the ELLE mag I gave her. It's a tad less exciting because I've already flipped through it in the bookstore and seen some of the ads in the ELLE but I guess I can look at it more closely now.. maybe we'll get more!! That would be great.

It's weird that it suddenly appeared to me on the one day I decide to watch 'Project Runway'.. Maybe the universe is trying to tell me something

End Of Trueblood Season 4 (spoilers)

Saw the last episode of season 4 of True Blood. I feel like this season was very short and there was more suspense in the past ones but, of course, it was not without it's great, interesting moments. I'm mad they killed Jesus.. I thought he would be sticking around for awhile and I will not be happy if Tara dies. Idk why people hate Tara.. I know she makes mistakes and is a bit wound up but she's a great person/character and has done nothing unreasonable.. and Sookie has done plenty of stupid shit. I don't usually say this but I think some people just don't like her because she's black.

Towards the end I was wondering what else could they surprise us with.. like in terms of setting up for next season and the future problems.. Having Reverend Newlin show up as a vampire was absolutely superb! I mean it wasn't a total head spinner but I was just like 'hahahaahaha cool!'... it really was.

And also.. I thought it was weird that they killed Nan.. not that she was a favorite or anything but Idk.. I feel like she would be involved more. I wonder if they are going to introduce a lot of new characters since they seem to be killing off quite a few.

Otocinclus and Feeding Cory Cats

My tank looks super algae free now! There's just some dead algae that flaked off and landed on the bottom and on the plant but other than that.. the cave is algae free and the gravel doesn't have a spot of bright green. Now I just wonder what my otocinclus is going to eat or if he's going to live. I almost hope more algae grows now that I know it won't be a big problem.

My cory cats were looking kind of gaunt even though I've been trying to feed them. My betta is pretty tolerant of the other fish but he will get aggressive over food or at least scare them away. He eats their pellets and their wafers.. he gets so fat sometimes it's a wonder he hasn't overeaten and died. So my new 'solution'.. well, it's an idea, is to crush up the pellets and have them get sprinkled over the bottom.. this way they are not noticeable but the cory cats will suck them up and as they scrounge around. I'm not sure if this is enough or if the filter gets most of it or if I'm just making my tank gravel dirty but >.> Don't know what else to do!

Oh Nepenthe pt.2

My new tumblr is coming along well enough. Finding interesting stuff has gotten a lot easier and I actually dared to write about something (albeit clumsily like I always do)! Here it is again, ohnepenthe.tumblr.com